These past two weeks have been the most mind numbing weeks of my life. I’m trying to figure out what I want to do with my life but it keep coming back to that same dead end. I really hate it and I cannot believe after 5 years of being back home from college and almost hitting the big 3-0 I’m still confused as hell. I seem to have a lot of negativity in my mind that’s holding me back. It’s like I want to try beauty but I’m not an expert and I don’t have a lot of experience. I want to try fitness but I’m not sure how to start it. I want to do so many things but everybody else is doing it and I want to do well. I just hate feeling like this.