He was one of the first people I met and I thought he was an ass hole. Then I spoke to him and he was so cool, I could be myself around him. Now I cannot barely look at him without almost crying. He’s said some of the rudest things and I stay around like a fool . Even when I keep my distance I’m asked “ you don’t want to talk to me anymore?” No! Because you ain’t shit! Yes!! Because I miss you. I put my feelings out here and I get disappointed each time. I hate feeling like this and it tells a lot about my upbringing, not having a father around and having a stable environment for self esteem and self control. My name is Jessica and I am falling in love with a man that doesn’t want me.